As the amount of light gradually reduces I have to be more and more careful about the music I play, as the wrong album at the wrong time can tip me into a deep brooding place that it is hard to extricate myself from. I know this is related to S.A.D and is perfectly normal at this time of year and I have to manage my musical choices almost as carefully as my exposure to light.
What’s worse is that I adore that melancholy, introspective, brooding feeling and when I start to feel it, it is hard to resist it’s allure. There is something about being curled up indoors when it is cold and gloomy outside with a good book and some of your favourite music playing in the background. You can look past you reflection in the window at the misty autumn/winter light and feel all cosy and nostalgic.
There is a particular feel about this time of year for sure. Halloween has just passed and Guy Fawkes night, with it’s smell of bonfires and leaves in the air, is upon us and soon it will be Christmas and New Year and the time for celebration. In fact up until the New Year I am usually fine with my music and emotions, but once everything dies down and it’s back to the grind of work with nothing to look forward to, it can become harder to keep my emotions in check.
One favourite album for me at this time of year has to be 'The Division Bell’ by Pink Floyd. I love this album with a passion and it can make my insides ache more than most other albums I own. It’s searing guitars, thoughtful lyrics and emotive music hits me full force every time I play it. Yet, I know that if I play it too much and feel it too deeply when I am also struggling with S.A.D it can be a slippery slope to sadness and gloom.
Pink Floyd - The Division Bell |
There are other artists and albums that have a similar effect upon me, but you get the gist of what I am describing here. I have learnt to ‘self medicate’ with music and over the years I have found that when I start to notice that introspective, brooding feeling I can stop or slow it in it’s tracks by putting on some upbeat music and singing along full force.
Stamping my feet (when at work) or dancing along also helps and soon those more troublesome emotions have been banished and I am back on top and able to get going again.
Of course I have music that plays well at other particular times of the year and as spring starts to break out, so too do I break out my spring and summer albums and get in sync with the feeling of that time of year. These albums are often rock albums from my youth and maybe I’ll mention these in another article at some point. I am just thankful that I have music in my life that can affect me and also save me as profoundly as it does.